Ok so today was possibly one of the most awfullest days.. (is that even a word) whatever today it is....
So we have been having alot of trouble with Zack and his awful sleeping problems. I kid you not when i tell you he gets up 10-15 times a night. NO JOKE. The other night he only got up 5 times and i told my mom, "Last night was AWESOME, Zack only got up 5 times...???" what the... how weird does that sound I'm sure.. anyways... so last night was really a gooder, i am guessing on average i got about 1.5 hours of sleep (yes that is the whole night not just consecutive) so i was a wee bit tired, a little stressed and not to keen on going to church. But we went, but as we got there, I could tell that this wasn't going to be the best of days.... As went to nursery Zack had his usual meltdown... which isn't too abnormal haha.. anyways then Preston started crying wanting to eat so i take Zack, Preston and myself to the mothers lounge and as I am trying to nurse Preston he is crying his eyes out because he hates having a blanket on him while nursing, then Zack was freaking out because he wanted to go find dad.... so i just got dressed, changed both their bums, put one in one arm and another in the other as Zack was kicking and screaming to go find dad, and I marched around the church trying to find Ken. As I came around the corner I finally found him and as he walked closer to me I couldn't help it but the TEARS started to flow... ken was so worried and said, "whats wrong" All I could say is I WANNA GO HOME.... I am not going to lie... Church has been a huge struggle since Zack has gone to nursery. I feel like we go to sacrament and run the halls because what two year old can sit that long? Then we go to nursery and as in "We" I mean all of us. Ken has to teach but then comes up after because that's about the time I need him to either takePreston or be with Zack? Ugh have any of you had this problem. Anyways needless to say I left church today a MESS... bawling like a 5 year old. I saw one of my old teachers when I was in elementary and all she said was don't worry it gets easier... I thought in my head I feel like I am 5 again and all I wanted to say is I want my mom... LOL... anyways. Nevertheless I had a rough day what mom doesn't, although I will say I am more than embarrassed to go back to church next Sunday I will go and I will try and get through one more week. Hopefully we can get Zack to sleep for more than a few hours? anyways... anyone have any suggestions for sleep or for keeping a 2 year old at nursery and happy? lol?
So we have been having alot of trouble with Zack and his awful sleeping problems. I kid you not when i tell you he gets up 10-15 times a night. NO JOKE. The other night he only got up 5 times and i told my mom, "Last night was AWESOME, Zack only got up 5 times...???" what the... how weird does that sound I'm sure.. anyways... so last night was really a gooder, i am guessing on average i got about 1.5 hours of sleep (yes that is the whole night not just consecutive) so i was a wee bit tired, a little stressed and not to keen on going to church. But we went, but as we got there, I could tell that this wasn't going to be the best of days.... As went to nursery Zack had his usual meltdown... which isn't too abnormal haha.. anyways then Preston started crying wanting to eat so i take Zack, Preston and myself to the mothers lounge and as I am trying to nurse Preston he is crying his eyes out because he hates having a blanket on him while nursing, then Zack was freaking out because he wanted to go find dad.... so i just got dressed, changed both their bums, put one in one arm and another in the other as Zack was kicking and screaming to go find dad, and I marched around the church trying to find Ken. As I came around the corner I finally found him and as he walked closer to me I couldn't help it but the TEARS started to flow... ken was so worried and said, "whats wrong" All I could say is I WANNA GO HOME.... I am not going to lie... Church has been a huge struggle since Zack has gone to nursery. I feel like we go to sacrament and run the halls because what two year old can sit that long? Then we go to nursery and as in "We" I mean all of us. Ken has to teach but then comes up after because that's about the time I need him to either takePreston or be with Zack? Ugh have any of you had this problem. Anyways needless to say I left church today a MESS... bawling like a 5 year old. I saw one of my old teachers when I was in elementary and all she said was don't worry it gets easier... I thought in my head I feel like I am 5 again and all I wanted to say is I want my mom... LOL... anyways. Nevertheless I had a rough day what mom doesn't, although I will say I am more than embarrassed to go back to church next Sunday I will go and I will try and get through one more week. Hopefully we can get Zack to sleep for more than a few hours? anyways... anyone have any suggestions for sleep or for keeping a 2 year old at nursery and happy? lol?
Mandy you definitely need to cut yourself some slack, you have nothing to be embarrassed about sometimes the tears are just stronger than we are. I find sundays amazingly hard it seems no matter how the weeknights have gone, good sleeps bad sleeps, saturday nights are always the worst. I seriously have to tell Brooke it's church in the morning so her excitement will make me go. I don't know if this will help but I found that talking all week long to Brooke about getting to go to nursery on sunday, talking about playing with the kids and the toys, singing songs and having snacks really helped to have her feel prepared for what was to come. As for sleeping I'm sure you've tried it all, we have an air purifier in Brooke's room that runs all night long, it is not quiet at all but the white noise really helps her to get to sleep and stay asleep, I had tried music and other noise makers but the air purifier was the key for us. I hope things get better for you and soon. Don't get down on yourself you are an amazing mommy and it will all come together!! Good Luck!! Sorry I've blabbed so much but I just thought I'd tell you what has helped me in sacrament now that I have two to worry about, I got Brooke a special toy (Polly Pockets) that she only gets to see and play with during sacrament so far the novelty of it still hasn't worn off, just a thought.
ReplyDeleteHang in there Mands. Nursery will get easier as he gets older- and look on the bright side, you don't have to sit through any boring sunday school lessons. kidding of course :) As for sleep I can't help you out.... Owen still wakes up 2-4 times per night and it bites. He used to be worse but we let him cry it out and that seems to have helped a lot. I'm sad I didn't get a chance to come visit while we were home thiS week. I honestley have not seen Zack since he was a baby.
ReplyDeleteI am a mean mom, I would put him in his room and not get him, ever, put a child lock on his door so he cant get out, and just let him cry or figure it out or whatever he needs, I dont know if he is in a crib or toddler bed, but either way, he will eventually learn to fall asleep, he needs to learn to do it without mom or dad. Nursery, I would take him, put him in, and leave. Here they tell us to do that....but I think both my kids hate me cause they cant wait to go to Nursery, and dont even care that I left them, but when they have kids that dont want to go, they say to just leave the kid and then if there are problems they will come get you....so I guess I am just mean and live off of tough love! Sorry I am not much help!
ReplyDeleteoh and I wanted to tell you....SUNDAYS are the worst around here, there are so many times I have wanted to just give up and go home too...wondering why I go through the fight of getting ready in the morning to just stand int he halls (when my kids werent in nursery or primary), but it is worth it, they will learn, and know that you are NOT alone, even though it seems like you are the only one with kids that are acting up, you arent! good luck...dont give up, you are a great Mommy!
ReplyDeleteAw, Mandy I wish I had some words of wisdom for you, but I don't! All I can say is that you are an AWESOME Mommy, and I think you are amazing for doing what you do.
ReplyDelete2 year olds can be a freakin nightmare sometimes (I am starting to understand this firsthand now, and I HATE IT!!).
Have you called Dr. Chelsea yet, to help with the sleeping? I would definitely give it a whirl!
Good luck! And we will take Zack any time if you ever need a break!
oh Mandy, I just want to wrap my arms around you and tell you it's ok (I know that doesn't make it any easier to hear). I have had many melting points and I feel like a crazy mom all the time so yes it is normal and there are going to be many more ups and downs to come but by the end of the day you know those boys have the best mom ever.
ReplyDeletemandy, mandy, mandy... you are my hero....no advice, i think you are doing everything perfect..you are a great mom. what i am trying to do these days is find the humor in their CRAZINESS and STUBBORNNESS.... so maybe that will help you get through the days....ive come to realize life doesnt stop for anyone...it can be awfully tiresome, but you are doing great!!!
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